Hello Tumblr World,

**Please note the following blog i am about to write is how i’m feeling lately so if you don’t want to read about my emotions and drama and stuff don’t read it! Just to warn you**

Okay so first of all Happy New Year to everybody! I can’t believe its 2012 already! It feels like yesterday it was in the early 2000’s. So of course you all know i returned to school 2 months ago, and i was pretty excited about everything feeling that my life has come full circle and everything is going all right; Well i was wrong, if all of you must know ever since i started school from elementary school I’ve had really bad anxiety problems. It was so bad i never wanted to go to school and of course people who didn’t know me at all past judgement about me but that’s no surprise to me these days, but anyways it made me feel so uncomfortable at school i never wanted to go, being at home was where i felt most comfortable and safe and secure. I know school is the law but it’s just not for me. I’ve felt this way all my life and i’ve come to realize i just need to keep trying to find the one program that will work for me. Obviously the school i go to now isn’t working out so i know i’ll be parting ways with them but i’m 100% okay with that; Because my health has gone down drastically i’ve felt nauseated for over a month not wanting to do anything. I feel as if i am dying but i will fight this because i am a very dedicated person. School is not going to kill nor will it ever. I apologize to my family for letting them down with my education, i feel i failed them all. If i could change one thing i’d ask god to heal me of this terrible anxiety i have. I know anxiety is mind over matter but my mind takes control of my emotions. I haven’t cried like i have been for so long. I’ve just had a breakdown coming to realize the reality of my life..

All i can say is i’m sorry to everyone that loves me and cares about me, i hope 2012 i can make you proud in other ways! #RealTalk

~Robert xoxo 

Has it ever seemed that not one song that plays on your ipod, Cd, Radio or on Tv you just can always think of something in your personal life?

It made me realized how all songs i listen too make me think of memories, bad memories or something i can do in the future. It’s amazing how all songs have a message all of us fans/listeners notice. 

Although some songs may make us feel sad or want to cry, at least it proves music is a great way to express your emotions right? It shows how we are all different in many ways. 

It just proves everything in life has a path of messages.